Lost in His Eyes by Neiderman Andrew

Author:Neiderman, Andrew [Neiderman, Andrew]
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
ISBN: 9780727885425
Publisher: Severn House Publishers
Published: 2015-07-22T07:00:00+00:00

‘What?’

‘Call me in the morning,’ I said. ‘I have to do some pre-planning, but I agree. I need a change of scenery,’ I added and drove off, leaving him standing there and watching me disappear around a turn, his face full of ‘I knew she would.’

EIGHT

‘You finished the first assignment already?’ Ronnie asked, the astonishment on his face metamorphosing him into a fourteen-year-old boy full of wonder. In the early days of our relationship and marriage, I found this quality attractive. There was an innocence I could embrace. Over time, that somehow became annoying, even suspiciously contrived.

I think you stop trusting your husband or your lover when you realize he has practically memorized each and every one of your reactions to anything and everything. He’s like a taxicab driver who knows every turn, every bump in the road, and knows when to slow down and when to speed up. Surprise diminishes and diminishes until it’s almost non-existent. You know he knows how you will react and plans for it. You no longer believe in what you see in his face and hear in his words. He’s drifted away under the camouflage woven out of your own reactions and words.

‘It wasn’t brain surgery,’ I said, trying not to sound egotistical. ‘The documents were easy to evaluate. There weren’t that many. When you’ve done it as many times as I have …’

The little boy in him evaporated in an instant as he maneuvered into his business mind.

‘You could have dragged it out and made more money. You’re being paid by the hour since you’re just part-time, right? I mean, that’s what lawyers do anyway. I’m sure he wouldn’t complain. He’d just pass on the costs to the client,’ he whined. At least, to me, it seemed like whining.

I was going to say I don’t like to cheat anyone. I almost said it wasn’t in my DNA, but I hesitated. It suddenly occurred to me that one major transgression affects every small indiscretion you might contemplate and makes it seem less important and too little to challenge your conscience. It’s not a license to steal exactly, but everything, no matter how contradictory to who and what you were before, suddenly becomes insignificant. If you’re a murderer, you don’t have pangs of conscience when you defraud someone or commit some other non-capital crime. It’s as if you’ve already crossed over; the devil has won your soul. Additional stains don’t matter.

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